Caleb Plummer and his Blind Daughter lived all alone
by themselves, as the Story Books say--and my blessing,
with yours, to back it I hope, on the Story Books, for saying
anything in this work-a-day world!--Caleb Plummer and his
Blind Daughter lived all alone by themselves, in a little cracked
nutshell of a wooden house, which was, in truth, no better than
a pimple on the prominent red-brick nose of Gruff and Tackleton.
The premises of Gruff and Tackleton were the great
feature of the street; but you might have knocked down Caleb
Plummer's dwelling with a hammer or two, and carried off the
pieces in a cart.
If any one had done the dwelling-house of Caleb Plummer
the honour to miss it after such an inroad, it would have been,
no doubt, to commend its demolition as a vast improvement.
It stuck to the premises of Gruff and Tackleton like a barnacle
to a ship's keel, or a snail to a door, or a little bunch of toadstools
to the stem of a tree. But it was the germ from which
the full-grown trunk of Gruff and Tackleton had sprung; and,
under its crazy roof, the Gruff before last had, in a small way,
made toys for a generation of old boys and girls, who had played
with them, and found them out, and broken them, and gone to
sleep.
I have said that Caleb and his poor Blind Daughter lived
here. I should have said that Caleb lived here, and his poor
Blind Daughter somewhere else--in an enchanted home of
Caleb's furnishing, where scarcity and shabbiness were not,
and trouble never entered. Caleb was no sorcerer; but in the
only magic art that still remains to us, the magic of devoted,
deathless love, Nature had been the mistress of his study; and,
from her teaching, all the wonder came.
The Blind Girl never knew that ceilings were discoloured,
walls blotched and bare of plaster here and there, high crevices
unstopped and widening every day, beams mouldering and
tending downward. The Blind Girl never knew that iron was
rusting, wood rotting, paper peeling off; the size, and shape,
and true proportion of the dwelling, withering away. The
Blind Girl never knew that ugly shapes of delf and earthenware
were on the board; that sorrow and faint-heartedness were in
the house; that Caleb's scanty hairs were turning greyer and more
grey before her sightless face. The Blind Girl never knew they
had a master, cold, exacting, and uninterested--never knew
that Tackleton was Tackleton, in short; but lived in the belief
of an eccentric humorist, who loved to have his jest with them,
and who, while he was the Guardian Angel of their lives, disdained
to hear one word of thankfulness.
And all was Caleb's doing; all the doing of her simple father!
But he, too, had a Cricket on his Hearth; and listening sadly
to its music when the motherless Blind Child was very young
that Spirit had inspired him with the thought that even her
great deprivation might be almost changed into a blessing,
and the girl made happy by these little means. For all the
Cricket tribe are potent Spirits, even though the people who
hold converse with them do not know it (which is frequently
the case), and there are not in the unseen world voices more
gentle and more true, that may be so implicitly relied on, or
that are so certain to give none but tenderest counsel, as the
Voices in which the Spirits of the Fireside and the Hearth address
themselves to humankind.
Caleb and his daughter were at work together in their usual
working-room, which served them for their ordinary living-room
as well; and a strange place it was. There were houses in
it, finished and unfinished, for Dolls of all stations in life. Suburban
tenements for Dolls of moderate means; kitchens and
single apartments for Dolls of the lower classes; capital town
residences for Dolls of high estate. Some of these establishments
were already furnished according to estimate, with a
view to the convenience of Dolls of limited income; others
could be fitted on the most expensive scale, at a moment's
notice, from whole shelves of chairs and tables, sofas, bedsteads,
and upholstery. The nobility and gentry and public in general,
for whose accommodation these tenements were designed, lay
here and there, in baskets, staring straight up at the ceiling;
but in denoting their degrees in society, and confining them to
their respective stations (which experience shows to be lamentably
difficult in real life), the makers of these Dolls had far
improved on Nature, who is often froward and perverse; for
they, not resting on such arbitrary marks as satin, cotton print,
and bits of rag, had superadded striking personal differences
which allowed of no mistake. Thus, the Doll-lady of distinction
had wax limbs of perfect symmetry; but only she and her compeers.
The next grade in the social scale being made of leather,
and the next of coarse linen stuff. As to the common people,
they had just so many matches out of tinder-boxes for their
arms and legs, and there they were--established in their
sphere at once, beyond the possibility of getting out of it.
There were various other samples of his handicraft besides
Dolls in Caleb Plummer's room. There were Noah's arks, in
which the Birds and Beasts were an uncommonly tight fit, I
assure you; though they could be crammed in, anyhow, at the
roof, and rattled and shaken into the smallest compass. By a
bold poetical licence, most of these Noah's arks had knockers
on the doors; inconsistent appendages, perhaps, as suggestive
of morning callers and a Postman, yet a pleasant finish to the
outside of the building. There were scores of melancholy
little carts, which, when the wheels went round, performed
most doleful music. Many small fiddles, drums, and other
instruments of torture; no end of cannon, shields, swords,
spears, and guns. There were little tumblers in red breeches,
incessantly swarming up high obstacles of red tape, and coming
down, head first, on the other side; and there were innumerable
old gentlemen of respectable, not to say venerable appearance,
insanely flying over horizontal pegs, inserted, for the purpose, in
their own street-doors. There were beasts of all sorts; horses,
in particular, of every breed, from the spotted barrel on four
pegs with a small tippet for a mane, to the thorough-bred rocker
on his highest mettle. As it would have been hard to count the
dozens upon dozens of grotesque figures that were ever ready
to commit all sorts of absurdities on the turning of a handle,
so it would have been no easy task to mention any human folly,
vice, or weakness that had not its type, immediate or remote,
in Caleb Plummer's room. And not in an exaggerated form,
for very little handles will move men and women to as strange
performances as any Toy was ever made to undertake.
In the midst of all these objects, Caleb and his daughter sat
at work. The Blind Girl busy as a Doll's dressmaker; Caleb
painting and glazing the four-pair front of a desirable family
mansion.
The care imprinted in the lines of Caleb's face, and his
absorbed and dreamy manner, which would have sat well on
some alchemist or abstruse student, were at first sight an odd
contrast to his occupation and the trivialities about him. But
trivial things, invented and pursued for bread, become very
serious matters of fact: and, apart from this consideration, I
am not at all prepared to say, myself, that if Caleb had been
a Lord Chamberlain, or a Member of Parliament, or a lawyer,
or even a great speculator, he would have dealt in toys one whit
less whimsical, while I have a very great doubt whether they
would have been as harmless.
"So you were out in the rain last night, father, in your
beautiful new great-coat," said Caleb's daughter.
"In my beautiful new great-coat," answered Caleb, glancing
towards a clothes-line in the room, on which the sackcloth
garment previously described was carefully hung up to dry.
"How glad I am you bought it, father!"
"And of such a tailor too," said Caleb. "Quite a fashionable
tailor. It's too good for me."
The Blind Girl rested from her work, and laughed with delight.
"Too good, father! What can be too good for you?"
"I'm half ashamed to wear it, though," said Caleb, watching
the effect of what he said upon her brightening face, "upon my
word! When I hear the boys and people say behind me, 'Halloa!
Here's a swell!' I don't know which way to look. And
when the beggar wouldn't go away last night; and, when I said
I was a very common man, said, 'No, your Honour! Bless
your Honour, don't say that!' I was quite ashamed. I really
felt as if I hadn't a right to wear it."
Happy Blind Girl! How merry she was in her exultation!
"I see you, father," she said, clasping her hands, "as plainly
as if I had the eyes I never want when you are with me. A blue
coat----"
"Bright blue," said Caleb.
"Yes, yes! Bright blue!" exclaimed the girl, turning up
her radiant face; "the colour I can just remember in the blessed
sky! You told me it was blue before! A bright blue coat----"
"Made loose to the figure," suggested Caleb.
"Yes! loose to the figure!" cried the Blind Girl, laughing
heartily; "and in it, you, dear father, with your merry eye,
your smiling face, your free step, and your dark hair--looking
so young and handsome!"
"Halloa! Halloa!" said Caleb. "I shall be vain presently!"
"I think you are already," cried the Blind Girl, pointing at
him in her glee. "I know you, father! Ha, ha, ha! I've
found you out, you see!"
How different the picture in her mind, from Caleb, as he sat
observing her! She had spoken of his free step. She was
right in that. For years and years he had never once crossed
that threshold at his own slow pace, but with a footfall counterfeited
for her ear; and never had he, when his heart was heaviest,
forgotten the light tread that was to render hers so cheerful and
courageous!
Heaven knows! But I think Caleb's vague bewilderment of
manner may have half originated in his having confused himself
about himself and everything around him, for the love of his
Blind Daughter. How could the little man be otherwise than
bewildered, after labouring for so many years to destroy his
own identity, and that of all the objects that had any bearing
on it?
"There we are," said Caleb, falling back a pace or two to
form the better judgment of his work; "as near the real thing
as sixpenn'orth of halfpence is to sixpence. What a pity that
the whole front of the house opens at once! If there was only a
staircase in it now, and regular doors to the rooms to go in at!
But that's the worst of my calling, I'm always deluding myself,
and swindling myself."
"You are speaking quite softly. You are not tired, father?"
"Tired!" echoed Caleb with a great burst of animation.
"What should tire me, Bertha? I was never tired. What
does it mean?"
To give the greater force to his words, he checked himself
in an involuntary imitation of two half-length stretching and
yawning figures on the mantel-shelf, who were represented as in
one eternal state of weariness from the waist upwards; and
hummed a fragment of a song. It was a Bacchanalian song,
something about a Sparkling Bowl. He sang it with an assumption
of a Devil-may-care voice, that made his face a thousand
times more meagre and more thoughtful than ever.
"What! You're singing, are you?" said Tackleton, putting
his head in at the door. "Go it! I can't sing."
Nobody would have suspected him of it. He hadn't what is
generally termed a singing face, by any means.
"I can't afford to sing," said Tackleton. "I'm glad you
can. I hope you can afford to work too. Hardly time for both,
I should think?"
"If you could only see him, Bertha, how he's winking at
me!" whispered Caleb. "Such a man to joke! You'd think,
if you didn't know him, he was in earnest--wouldn't you now?"
The Blind Girl smiled and nodded.
"The bird that can sing and won't sing must be made to
sing, they say," grumbled Tackleton. "What about the owl
that can't sing, and oughtn't to sing, and will sing; is there anything
that he should be made to do?"
"The extent to which he's winking at this moment!" whispered
Caleb to his daughter. "Oh, my gracious!"
"Always merry and light-hearted with us!" cried the smiling
Bertha.
"Oh! you're there, are you?" answered Tackleton. "Poor
Idiot!"
He really did believe she was an Idiot; and he founded the
belief, I can't say whether consciously or not, upon her being
fond of him.
"Well! and being there,--how are you?" said Tackleton
in his grudging way.
"Oh! well; quite well! And as happy as even you can wish
me to be. As happy as you would make the whole world, if
you could!"
"Poor Idiot!" muttered Tackleton. "No gleam of reason.
Not a gleam!"
The Blind Girl took his hand and kissed it; held it for a
moment in her own two hands; and laid her cheek against it
tenderly before releasing it. There was such unspeakable
affection and such fervent gratitude in the act, that Tackleton
himself was moved to say, in a milder growl than usual:
"What's the matter now?"
"I stood it close beside my pillow when I went to sleep last
night, and remembered it in my dreams. And when the day
broke, and the glorious red sun--the red sun, father?"
"Red in the mornings and the evenings, Bertha," said poor
Caleb with a woeful glance at his employer.
"When it rose, and the bright light I almost fear to strike
myself against in walking, came into the room, I turned the little
tree towards it, and blessed Heaven for making things so precious,
and blessed you for sending them to cheer me!"
"Bedlam broke loose!" said Tackleton under his breath.
"We shall arrive at the strait-waistcoat and mufflers soon.
We're getting on!"
Caleb, with his hands hooked loosely in each other, stared
vacantly before him while his daughter spoke, as if he really
were uncertain (I believe he was) whether Tackleton had done
anything to deserve her thanks or not. If he could have been
a perfectly free agent at that moment, required, on pain of
death, to kick the toy merchant, or fall at his feet, according
to his merits, I believe it would have been an even chance which
course he would have taken. Yet Caleb knew that with his
own hands he had brought the little rose-tree home for her so
carefully, and that with his own lips he had forged the innocent
deception which should help to keep her from suspecting how
much, how very much, he every day denied himself, that she
might be happier.
"Bertha!" said Tackleton, assuming, for the nonce, a little
cordiality. "Come here."
"Oh, I can come straight to you! You needn't guide me!"
she rejoined.
"Shall I tell you a secret, Bertha?"
"If you will!" she answered eagerly.
How bright the darkened face! How adorned with light
the listening head!
"This is the day on which little what's-her-name, the spoilt
child, Peerybingle's wife, pays her regular visit to you--makes
her fantastic Picnic here, an't it?" said Tackleton with a strong
expression of distaste for the whole concern.
"Yes," replied Bertha. "This is the day."
"I thought so," said Tackleton. "I should like to join the
party."
"Do you hear that, father?" cried the Blind Girl in an
ecstasy.
"Yes, yes, I hear it," murmured Caleb with the fixed look
of a sleep-walker; "but I don't believe it. It's one of my lies,
I've no doubt."
"You see I--I want to bring the Peerybingles a little more
into company with May Fielding," said Tackleton. "I'm
going to be married to May."
"Married!" cried the Blind Girl, starting from him.
"She's such a con-founded idiot," muttered Tackleton,
"that I was afraid she'd never comprehend me. Ah, Bertha!
Married! Church, parson, clerk, beadle, glass coach, bells,
breakfast, bridecake, favours, marrow-bones, cleavers, and all
the rest of the tomfoolery. A wedding, you know; a wedding.
Don't you know what a wedding is?"
"I know," replied the Blind Girl in a gentle tone. "I
understand!"
"Do you?" muttered Tackleton. "It's more than I expected.
Well! On that account I want to join the party,
and to bring May and her mother. I'll send in a little something
or other, before the afternoon. A cold leg of mutton, or
some comfortable trifle of that sort. You'll expect me?"
"Yes," she answered.
She had drooped her head, and turned away; and so stood,
with her hands crossed, musing.
"I don't think you will," muttered Tackleton, looking at her;
"for you seem to have forgotten all about it already. Caleb!"
"I may venture to say I'm here, I suppose," thought Caleb.
"Sir!"
"Take care she don't forget what I've been saying to her."
"She never forgets," returned Caleb. "It's one of the few
things she an't clever in."
"Every man thinks his own geese swans," observed the toy
merchant with a shrug. "Poor devil!"
Having delivered himself of which remark with infinite contempt,
old Gruff and Tackleton withdrew.
Bertha remained where he had left her, lost in meditation.
The gaiety had vanished from her downcast face, and it was very
sad. Three or four times she shook her head, as if bewailing
some remembrance or some loss; but her sorrowful reflections
found no vent in words.
It was not until Caleb had been occupied some time in
yoking a team of horses to a waggon by the summary process
of nailing the harness to the vital parts of their bodies, that she
drew near to his working-stool, and, sitting down beside him,
said:
"Father, I am lonely in the dark. I want my eyes, my
patient, willing eyes."
"Here they are," said Caleb. "Always ready. They are
more yours than mine, Bertha, any hour in the four-and-twenty.
What shall your eyes do for you, dear?"
"Look round the room, father."
"All right," said Caleb. "No sooner said than done,
Bertha."
"Tell me about it."
"It's much the same as usual," said Caleb. "Homely, but
very snug. The gay colours on the walls; the bright flowers
on the plates and dishes; the shining wood, where there are
beams or panels; the general cheerfulness and neatness of the
building,--make it very pretty."
Cheerful and neat it was, wherever Bertha's hands could
busy themselves. But nowhere else were cheerfulness and
neatness possible in the old crazy shed which Caleb's fancy so
transformed.
"You have your working dress on, and are not so gallant as
when you wear the handsome coat?" said Bertha, touching
him.
"Not quite so gallant," answered Caleb. "Pretty brisk,
though."
"Father," said the Blind Girl, drawing close to his side,
and stealing one arm round his neck, "tell me something about
May. She is very fair?"
"She is indeed," said Caleb. And she was indeed. It was
quite a rare thing to Caleb not to have to draw on his invention.
"Her hair is dark," said Bertha pensively, "darker than
mine. Her voice is sweet and musical, I know. I have often
loved to hear it. Her shape----"
"There's not a Doll's in all the room to equal it," said
Caleb. "And her eyes!----"
He stopped; for Bertha had drawn closer round his neck,
and, from the arm that clung about him, came a warning pressure
which he understood too well.
He coughed a moment, hammered for a moment, and then
fell back upon the song about the sparkling bowl, his infallible
resource in all such difficulties.
"Our friend, father, our benefactor. I am never tired, you
know, of hearing about him.--Now, was I ever?" she said
hastily.
"Of course not," answered Caleb, "and with reason."
"Ah! With how much reason!" cried the Blind Girl.
With such fervency, that Caleb, though his motives were so
pure, could not endure to meet her face; but dropped his eyes,
as if she could have read in them his innocent deceit.
"Then tell me again about him, dear father," said Bertha.
"Many times again! His face is benevolent, kind, and tender.
Honest and true, I am sure it is. The manly heart that tries to
cloak all favours with a show of roughness and unwillingness,
beats in its every look and glance."
"And makes it noble," added Caleb in his quiet desperation.
"And makes it noble," cried the Blind Girl. "He is older
than May, father."
"Ye-es," said Caleb reluctantly. "He's a little older than
May. But that don't signify."
"Oh, father, yes! To be his patient companion in infirmity
and age; to be his gentle nurse in sickness, and his constant
friend in suffering and sorrow; to know no weariness in working
for his sake; to watch him, tend him, sit beside his bed and talk
to him awake, and pray for him asleep; what privileges these
would be! What opportunities for proving all her truth and
her devotion to him! Would she do all this, dear father?"
"No doubt of it," said Caleb.
"I love her, father; I can love her from my soul!" exclaimed
the Blind Girl. And, saying so, she laid her poor blind face on
Caleb's shoulder, and so wept and wept, that he was almost
sorry to have brought that tearful happiness upon her.
In the meantime there had been a pretty sharp commotion
at John Peerybingle's, for little Mrs. Peerybingle naturally
couldn't think of going anywhere without the Baby; and to get
the Baby under way took time. Not that there was much of
the Baby, speaking of it as a thing of weight and measure, but
there was a vast deal to do about and about it, and it all had to
be done by easy stages. For instance, when the Baby was got,
by hook and by crook, to a certain point of dressing, and you
might have rationally supposed that another touch or two
would finish him off, and turn him out a tiptop Baby challenging
the world, he was unexpectedly extinguished in a flannel cap,
and hustled off to bed; where he simmered (so to speak) between
two blankets for the best part of an hour. From this state of
inaction he was then recalled, shining very much and roaring
violently, to partake of--well? I would rather say, if you'll
permit me to speak generally--of a slight repast. After which
he went to sleep again. Mrs. Peerybingle took advantage of
this interval, to make herself as smart in a small way as ever
you saw anybody in all your life; and, during the same short
truce, Miss Slowboy insinuated herself into a spencer of a fashion
so surprising and ingenious, that it had no connection with
herself, or anything else in the universe, but was a shrunken,
dog's-eared, independent fact, pursuing its lonely course without
the least regard to anybody. By this time, the Baby, being
all alive again, was invested, by the united efforts of Mrs. Peerybingle
and Miss Slowboy, with a cream-coloured mantle for its
body, and a sort of nankeen raised pie for its head; and so, in
course of time, they all three got down to the door, where the
old horse had already taken more than the full value of his
day's toll out of the Turnpike Trust, by tearing up the road
with his impatient autographs; and whence Boxer might be
dimly seen in the remote perspective, standing looking back,
and tempting him to come on without orders.
As to a chair, or anything of that kind for helping Mrs.
Peerybingle into the cart, you know very little of John, if you
think that was necessary. Before you could have seen him lift
her from the ground, there she was in her place, fresh and rosy,
saying, "John! How can you? Think of Tilly!"
If I might be allowed to mention a young lady's legs on any
terms, I would observe of Miss Slowboy's that there was a fatality
about them which rendered them singularly liable to be grazed;
and that she never effected the smallest ascent or descent without
recording the circumstance upon them with a notch, as
Robinson Crusoe marked the days upon his wooden calendar.
But, as this might be considered ungenteel, I'll think of it.
"John! You've got the basket with the Veal and Ham Pie
and things, and the bottles of Beer?" said Dot. "If you haven't
you must turn round again this very minute."
"You're a nice little article," returned the Carrier, "to be
talking about turning round, after keeping me a full quarter
of an hour behind my time."
"I am sorry for it, John," said Dot in a great bustle, "but
I really could not think of going to Bertha's--I would not do
it, John, on any account--without the Veal and Ham Pie and
things, and the bottles of Beer. Way!"
This monosyllable was addressed to the horse, who didn't
mind it at all.
"Oh, do way, John!" said Mrs. Peerybingle. "Please!"
"It'll be time enough to do that," returned John, "when I
begin to leave things behind me. The basket's safe enough."
"What a hard-hearted monster you must be, John, not to
have said so at once, and save me such a turn! I declare I
wouldn't go to Bertha's without the Veal and Ham Pie and
things, and the bottles of Beer, for any money. Regularly
once a fortnight ever since we have been married, John, have
we made our little Picnic there. If anything was to go wrong
with it, I should almost think we were never to be lucky
again."
"It was a kind thought in the first instance," said the Carrier;
"and I honour you for it, little woman."
"My dear John!" replied Dot, turning very red. "Don't
talk about honouring me. Good gracious!"
"By-the-bye"--observed the Carrier--"that old gentleman----"
Again so visibly and instantly embarrassed!
"He's an odd fish," said the Carrier, looking straight along
the road before them. "I can't make him out. I don't believe
there's any harm in him."
"None at all. I'm--I'm sure there's none at all."
"Yes," said the Carrier, with his eyes attracted to her face
by the great earnestness of her manner. "I am glad you feel
so certain of it, because it's a confirmation to me. It's curious
that he should have taken it into his head to ask leave to go on
lodging with us; an't it? Things come about so strangely."
"So very strangely," she rejoined in a low voice, scarcely
audible.
"However, he's a good-natured old gentleman," said John,
"and pays as a gentleman, and I think his word is to be relied
upon, like a gentleman's. I had quite a long talk with him this
morning: he can hear me better already, he says, as he gets
more used to my voice. He told me a great deal about himself,
and I told him a good deal about myself, and a rare lot of
questions he asked me. I gave him information about my
having two beats, you know, in my business; one day to the right
from our house and back again; another day to the left from
our house and back again (for he's a stranger, and don't know
the names of places about here); and he seemed quite pleased.
'Why, then I shall be returning home to-night your way,' he
says, 'when I thought you'd be coming in an exactly opposite
direction. That's capital! I may trouble you for another
lift, perhaps, but I'll engage not to fall so sound asleep again.'
He was sound asleep, sure-ly!--Dot! what are you thinking of?"
"Thinking of, John? I--I was listening to you."
"Oh! That's all right!" said the honest Carrier. "I was
afraid, from the look of your face, that I had gone rambling on
so long as to set you thinking about something else. I was very
near it, I'll be bound."
Dot making no reply, they jogged on, for some little time,
in silence. But, it was not easy to remain silent very long in
John Peerybingle's cart, for everybody on the road had something
to say. Though it might only be "How are you?" and,
indeed, it was very often nothing else, still, to give that back
again in the right spirit of cordiality, required, not merely a nod
and a smile, but as wholesome an action of the lungs withal as a
long-winded Parliamentary speech. Sometimes, passengers on
foot, or horseback, plodded on a little way beside the cart, for
the express purpose of having a chat; and then there was a great
deal to be said on both sides.
Then, Boxer gave occasion to more good-natured recognitions
of, and by, the Carrier, than half-a-dozen Christians could
have done! Everybody knew him all along the road--especially
the fowls and pigs, who, when they saw him approaching,
with his body all on one side, and his ears pricked up inquisitively,
and that knob of a tail making the most of itself in the air,
immediately withdrew into remote back-settlements, without
waiting for the honour of a nearer acquaintance. He had business
elsewhere; going down all the turnings, looking into all the
wells, bolting in and out of all the cottages, dashing into the
midst of all the Dame Schools, fluttering all the pigeons, magnifying
the tails of all the cats, and trotting into the
public-houses
like a regular customer. Wherever he went, somebody
or other might have been heard to cry, "Halloa! here's Boxer!"
and out came that somebody forthwith, accompanied by at least
two or three other somebodies, to give John Peerybingle and his
pretty wife Good day.
The packages and parcels for the errand cart were numerous;
and there were many stoppages to take them in and give them
out, which were not by any means the worst parts of the journey.
Some people were so full of expectation about their parcels, and
other people were so full of wonder about their parcels, and
other people were so full of inexhaustible directions about their
parcels, and John had such a lively interest in all the parcels,
that it was as good as a play. Likewise, there were articles to
carry, which required to be considered and discussed, and in
reference to the adjustment and disposition of which councils
had to be holden by the Carrier and the senders: at which Boxer
usually assisted, in short fits of the closest attention, and long
fits of tearing round and round the assembled sages, and barking
himself hoarse. Of all these little incidents, Dot was the
amused and open-eyed spectatress from her chair in the cart;
and as she sat there, looking on--a charming little portrait
framed to admiration by the tilt--there was no lack of nudgings
and glancings and whisperings and envyings among the
younger men. And this delighted John the Carrier beyond
measure; for he was proud to have his little wife admired, knowing
that she didn't mind it--that, if anything, she rather liked
it perhaps.
The trip was a little foggy, to be sure, in the January weather;
and was raw and cold. But who cared for such trifles? Not
Dot, decidedly. Not Tilly Slowboy, for she deemed sitting in a
cart, on any terms, to be the highest point of human joys; the
crowning circumstance of earthly hope. Not the Baby, I'll
be sworn; for it's not in Baby nature to be warmer or more sound
asleep, though its capacity is great in both respects, than that
blessed young Peerybingle was, all the way.
You couldn't see very far in the fog, of course; but you could
see a great deal! It's astonishing how much you may see in a
thicker fog than that, if you will only take the trouble to look
for it. Why, even to sit watching for the Fairyrings in the
fields, and for the patches of hoar frost still lingering in the shade,
near hedges and by trees, was a pleasant occupation, to make no
mention of the unexpected shapes in which the trees themselves
came starting out of the mist, and glided into it again. The
hedges were tangled and bare, and waved a multitude of blighted
garlands in the wind; but there was no discouragement in this.
It was agreeable to contemplate; for it made the fireside warmer
in possession, and the summer greener in expectancy. The
river looked chilly; but it was in motion, and moving at a good
pace--which was a great point. The canal was rather slow
and torpid; that must be admitted. Never mind. It would
freeze the sooner when the frost set fairly in, and then there
would be skating and sliding; and the heavy old barges, frozen
up somewhere near a wharf, would smoke their rusty iron
chimney-pipes all day, and have a lazy time of it.
In one place there was a great mound of weeds or stubble
burning; and they watched the fire, so white in the daytime, flaring
through the fog, with only here and there a dash of red in
it, until, in consequence, as she observed, of the smoke "getting
up her nose," Miss Slowboy choked--she could do anything
of that sort, on the smallest provocation--and woke the Baby,
who wouldn't go to sleep again. But Boxer, who was in advance
some quarter of a mile or so, had already passed the outposts
of the town, and gained the corner of the street where
Caleb and his daughter lived; and, long before they had reached
the door, he and the Blind Girl were on the pavement waiting
to receive them.
Boxer, by the way, made certain delicate distinctions of
his own, in his communication with Bertha, which persuade me
fully that he knew her to be blind. He never sought to attract
her attention by looking at her, as he often did with other people,
but touched her invariably. What experience he could ever
have had of blind people or blind dogs I don't know. He had
never lived with a blind master; nor had Mr. Boxer the elder,
nor Mrs. Boxer, nor any of his respectable family on either side,
ever been visited with blindness, that I am aware of. He may
have found it out for himself, perhaps, but he had got hold of it
somehow; and therefore he had hold of Bertha too, by the skirt,
and kept hold, until Mrs. Peerybingle and the Baby, and Miss
Slowboy and the basket, were all got safely within doors.
May Fielding was already come; and so was her mother--a
little querulous chip of an old lady with a peevish face, who,
in right of having preserved a waist like a bedpost, was supposed
to be a most transcendent figure; and who, in consequence of
having once been better off, or of labouring under an impression
that she might have been, if something had happened which
never did happen, and seemed to have never been particularly
likely to come to pass--but it's all the same--was very genteel
and patronising indeed. Gruff and Tackleton was also there,
doing the agreeable, with the evident sensation of being as perfectly
at home, and as unquestionably in his own element, as a
fresh young salmon on the top of the Great Pyramid.
"May! My dear old friend!" cried Dot, running up to
meet her. "What a happiness to see you!"
Her old friend was, to the full, as hearty and as glad as she;
and it really was, if you'll believe me, quite a pleasant sight to
see them embrace. Tackleton was a man of taste, beyond all
question. May was very pretty.
You know sometimes, when you are used to a pretty face,
how, when it comes into contact and comparison with another
pretty face, it seems for the moment to be homely and faded,
and hardly to deserve the high opinion you have had of it. Now,
this was not at all the case, either with Dot or May; for May's
face set off Dot's, and Dot's face set off May's, so naturally and
agreeably, that, as John Peerybingle was very near saying when
he came into the room, they ought to have been born sisters--which
was the only improvement you could have suggested.
Tackleton had brought his leg of mutton, and, wonderful to
relate, a tart besides--but we don't mind a little dissipation
when our brides are in the case; we don't get married every day--and,
in addition to these dainties, there were the Veal and
Ham Pie, and "things," as Mrs. Peerybingle called them; which
were chiefly nuts and oranges, and cakes, and such small deer.
When the repast was set forth on the board, flanked by Caleb's
contribution, which was a great wooden bowl of smoking potatoes
(he was prohibited, by solemn compact, from producing any
other viands), Tackleton led his intended mother-in-law to the
post of honour. For the better gracing of this place at the high
festival, the majestic old soul had adorned herself with a cap,
calculated to inspire the thoughtless with sentiments of awe.
She also wore her gloves. But let us be genteel, or die!
Caleb sat next his daughter; Dot and her old schoolfellow
were side by side; the good Carrier took care of the bottom of the
table. Miss Slowboy was isolated, for the time being, from
every article of furniture but the chair she sat on, that she might
have nothing else to knock the Baby's head against.
As Tilly stared about her at the dolls and toys, they stared
at her and at the company. The venerable old gentlemen at
the street-doors (who were all in full action) showed especial
interest in the party, pausing occasionally before leaping, as if
they were listening to the conversation, and then plunging wildly
over and over, a great many times, without halting for breath--as
in a frantic state of delight with the whole proceedings.
Certainly, if these old gentlemen were inclined to have a
fiendish joy in the contemplation of Tackleton's discomfiture,
they had good reason to be satisfied. Tackleton couldn't get
on at all; and the more cheerful his intended bride became in
Dot's society, the less he liked it, though he had brought them
together for that purpose. For he was a regular dog in the
manger, was Tackleton; and, when they laughed and he couldn't,
he took it into his head, immediately, that they must be laughing
at him.
"Ah, May!" said Dot. "Dear, dear, what changes! To
talk of those merry school days makes one young again."
"Why, you an't particularly old at any time, are you?" said
Tackleton.
"Look at my sober, plodding husband there," returned
Dot. "He adds twenty years to my age at least. Don't you,
John?"
"Forty," John replied.
"How many you'll add to Mary's, I am sure I don't know,"
said Dot, laughing. "But she can't be much less than a hundred
years of age on her next birthday."
"Ha, ha!" laughed Tackleton. Hollow as a drum that
laugh, though. And he looked as if he could have twisted
Dot's neck comfortably.
"Dear, dear!" said Dot. "Only to remember how we used
to talk, at school, about the husbands we would choose. I don't
know how young, and how handsome, and how gay, and how
lively mine was not to be! And as to May's!--Ah dear! I
don't know whether to laugh or cry, when I think what silly
girls we were."
May seemed to know which to do; for the colour flashed into
her face, and tears stood in her eyes.
"Even the very persons themselves--real live young men--we
fixed on sometimes," said Dot. "We little thought how
things would come about. I never fixed on John, I'm sure; I
never so much as thought of him. And, if I had told you you
were ever to be married to Mr. Tackleton, why, you'd have
slapped me. Wouldn't you, May?"
Though May didn't say yes, she certainly didn't say no, or
express no, by any means.
Tackleton laughed--quite shouted, he laughed so loud.
John Peerybingle laughed too, in his ordinary good-natured and
contented manner; but his was a mere whisper of a laugh to
Tackleton's.
"You couldn't help yourselves, for all that. You couldn't
resist us, you see," said Tackleton. "Here we are! Here we
are! Where are your gay young bridegrooms now?"
"Some of them are dead," said Dot; "and some of them
forgotten. Some of them, if they could stand among us at this
moment, would not believe we were the same creatures; would
not believe that what they saw and heard was real, and we could
forget them so. No! they would not believe one word of it!"
"Why, Dot!" exclaimed the Carrier. "Little woman!"
She had spoken with such earnestness and fire, that she
stood in need of some recalling to herself, without doubt. Her
husband's check was very gentle, for he merely interfered, as he
supposed, to shield old Tackleton; but it proved effectual, for
she stopped, and said no more. There was an uncommon
agitation, even in her silence, which the wary Tackleton, who
had brought his half-shut eye to bear upon her, noted closely,
and remembered to some purpose too.
May uttered no word, good or bad, but sat quite still, with
her eyes cast down, and made no sign of interest in what had
passed. The good lady her mother now interposed, observing,
in the first instance, that girls were girls, and bygones bygones,
and that, so long as young people were young and thoughtless,
they would probably conduct themselves like young and thoughtless
persons: with two or three other positions of a no less sound
and incontrovertible character. She then remarked, in a devout
spirit, that she thanked Heaven she had always found in
her daughter May a dutiful and obedient child: for which she
took no credit to herself, though she had every reason to believe
it was entirely owing to herself. With regard to Mr. Tackleton,
she said, That he was in a moral point of view an undeniable
individual, and That he was in an eligible point of view a son-in-law
to be desired, no one in their senses could doubt. (She
was very emphatic here.) With regard to the family into which
he was so soon about, after some solicitation, to be admitted,
she believed Mr. Tackleton knew that, although reduced in
purse, it had some pretensions to gentility; and that if certain circumstances,
not wholly unconnected, she would go so far as to
say, with the Indigo Trade, but to which she would not more
particularly refer, had happened differently, it might perhaps
have been in possession of wealth. She then remarked that she
would not allude to the past, and would not mention that her
daughter had for some time rejected the suit of Mr. Tackleton;
and that she would not say a great many other things which
she did say at great length. Finally, she delivered it as the
general result of her observation and experience, that those
marriages in which there was least of what was romantically
and sillily called love, were always the happiest; and that she
anticipated the greatest possible amount of bliss--not rapturous
bliss; but the solid, steady-going article--from the approaching
nuptials. She concluded by informing the company that
to-morrow was the day she had lived for expressly; and that,
when it was over, she would desire nothing better than to be
packed up and disposed of in any genteel place of burial.
As these remarks were quite unanswerable--which is the
happy property of all remarks that are sufficiently wide of the
purpose--they changed the current of the conversation, and
diverted the general attention to the Veal and Ham Pie, the
cold mutton, the potatoes, and the tart. In order that the
bottled beer might not be slighted, John Peerybingle proposed
To-morrow: the Wedding-day; and called upon them to drink
a bumper to it, before he proceeded on his journey.
For you ought to know that he only rested there, and gave
the old horse a bait. He had to go some four or five miles
farther on; and, when he returned in the evening, he called for
Dot, and took another rest on his way home. This was the
order of the day on all the Picnic occasions, and had been ever
since their institution.
There were two persons present, besides the bride and bridegroom
elect, who did but indifferent honour to the toast. One
of these was Dot, too flushed and discomposed to adapt herself
to any small occurrence of the moment; the other, Bertha, who
rose up hurriedly before the rest, and left the table.
"Good-bye!" said stout John Peerybingle, pulling on his
dreadnought coat. "I shall be back at the old time. Good-bye
all!"
"Good-bye, John," returned Caleb.
He seemed to say it by rote, and to wave his hand in the
same unconscious manner; for he stood observing Bertha with
an anxious wondering face, that never altered its expression.
"Good-bye, young shaver!" said the jolly Carrier, bending
down to kiss the child; which Tilly Slowboy, now intent upon
her knife and fork, had deposited asleep (and, strange to say,
without damage) in a little cot of Bertha's furnishing; "good-bye!
Time will come, I suppose, when you'll turn out into the
cold, my little friend, and leave your old father to enjoy his pipe
and his rheumatics in the chimney-corner; eh? Where's Dot?"
"I'm here, John!" she said, starting.
"Come, come!" returned the Carrier, clapping his sounding
hands. "Where's the pipe?"
"I quite forgot the pipe, John."
Forgot the pipe! Was such a wonder ever heard of? She!
Forgot the pipe!
"I'll--I'll fill it directly. It's soon done."
But it was not so soon done, either. It lay in the usual
place--the Carrier's dreadnought pocket--with the little
pouch, her own work, from which she was used to fill it; but
her hand shook so, that she entangled it (and yet her hand was
small enough to have come out easily, I am sure), and bungled
terribly. The filling of the pipe and lighting it, those little
offices in which I have commended her discretion, were vilely
done from first to last. During the whole process, Tackleton
stood looking on maliciously with the half-closed eye; which,
whenever it met hers--or caught it, for it can hardly be said to
have ever met another eye: rather being a kind of trap to snatch
it up--augmented her confusion in a most remarkable degree.
"Why, what a clumsy Dot you are this afternoon!" said
John. "I could have done it better myself, I verily believe!"
With these good-natured words, he strode away, and presently
was heard, in company with Boxer, and the old horse,
and the cart, making lively music down the road. What time
the dreamy Caleb still stood, watching his blind daughter, with
the same expression on his face.
"Bertha!" said Caleb, softly. "What has happened? How
changed you are, my darling, in a few hours--since this morning!
You silent and dull all day! What is it? Tell me!"
"Oh, father, father!" cried the Blind Girl, bursting into
tears. "Oh, my hard, hard fate!"
Caleb drew his hand across his eyes before he answered
her.
"But think how cheerful and how happy you have been,
Bertha! How good, and how much loved, by many people."
"That strikes me to the heart, dear father! Always so
mindful of me! Always so kind to me!"
Caleb was very much perplexed to understand her.
"To be--to be blind, Bertha, my poor dear," he faltered,
"is a great affliction; but----"
"I have never felt it!" cried the Blind Girl. "I have never
felt it in its fulness. Never! I have sometimes wished that I
could see you, or could see him--only once, dear father, only
for one little minute--that I might know what it is I treasure
up," she laid her hands upon her breast, "and hold here! That
I might be sure I have it right! And sometimes (but then I was
a child) I have wept in my prayers at night, to think that, when
your images ascended from my heart to Heaven, they might not
be the true resemblance of yourselves. But I have never had
these feelings long. They have passed away, and left me tranquil
and contented."
"And they will again," said Caleb.
"But, father! Oh, my good gentle father, bear with me, if
I am wicked!" said the Blind Girl. "This is not the sorrow
that so weighs me down!"
Her father could not choose but let his moist eyes overflow;
she was so earnest and pathetic. But he did not understand
her yet.
"Bring her to me," said Bertha. "I cannot hold it closed
and shut within myself. Bring her to me, father!"
She knew he hesitated, and said, "May. Bring May!"
May heard the mention of her name, and, coming quietly
towards her, touched her on the arm. The Blind Girl turned
immediately, and held her by both hands.
"Look into my face, Dear heart, Sweet heart!" said Bertha.
"Read it with your beautiful eyes, and tell me if the truth is
written on it."
"Dear Bertha, yes!"
The Blind Girl, still upturning the blank sightless face,
down which the tears were coursing fast, addressed her in these
words:
"There is not, in my soul, a wish or thought that is not for
your good, bright May! There is not, in my soul, a grateful
recollection stronger than the deep remembrance which is stored
there of the many many times when, in the full pride of sight
and beauty, you have had consideration for Blind Bertha, even
when we two were children, or when Bertha was as much a child
as ever blindness can be! Every blessing on your head! Light
upon your happy course! Not the less, my dear May,"--and
she drew towards her in a closer grasp,--"not the less, my bird,
because, to-day, the knowledge that you are to be His wife has
wrung my heart almost to breaking! Father, May, Mary!
Oh, forgive me that it is so, for the sake of all he has done to
relieve the weariness of my dark life: and for the sake of the belief
you have in me, when I call Heaven to witness that I could
not wish him married to a wife more worthy of his goodness!"
While speaking, she had released May Fielding's hands,
and clasped her garments in an attitude of mingled supplication
and love. Sinking lower and lower down, as she proceeded in
her strange confession, she dropped at last at the feet of her
friend, and hid her blind face in the folds of her dress.
"Great Power!" exclaimed her father, smitten at one blow
with the truth, "have I deceived her from her cradle, but to
break her heart at last?"
It was well for all of them that Dot, that beaming, useful,
busy little Dot--for such she was, whatever faults she had,
and however you may learn to hate her, in good time--it was
well for all of them, I say, that she was there, or where this
would have ended, it were hard to tell. But Dot, recovering
her self-possession, interposed, before May could reply, or Caleb
say another word.
"Come, come, dear Bertha! come away with me! Give
her your arm, May! So. How composed she is, you see,
already; and how good it is of her to mind us," said the cheery
little woman, kissing her upon the forehead. "Come away,
dear Bertha! Come! and here's her good father will come with
her, won't you, Caleb? To--be--sure!"
Well, well! she was a noble little Dot in such things, and it
must have been an obdurate nature that could have withstood
her influence. When she had got poor Caleb and his Bertha
away, that they might comfort and console each other, as she
knew they only could, she presently came bouncing back,--the
saying is, as fresh as any daisy; I say fresher--to mount
guard over that bridling little piece of consequence in the cap
and gloves, and prevent the dear old creature from making discoveries.
"So bring me the precious Baby, Tilly," said she, drawing
a chair to the fire; "and while I have it in my lap, here's Mrs.
Fielding, Tilly, will tell me all about the management of Babies,
and put me right in twenty points where I'm as wrong as can
be. Won't you, Mrs. Fielding?"
Not even the Welsh Giant, who, according to the popular
expression, was so "slow" as to perform a fatal surgical operation
upon himself, in emulation of a juggling trick achieved by
his arch enemy at breakfast-time; not even he fell half so readily
into the snare prepared for him as the old lady into this artful
pitfall. The fact of Tackleton having walked out; and furthermore,
of two or three people having been talking together at a
distance, for two minutes, leaving her to her own resources;
was quite enough to have put her on her dignity, and the bewailment
of that mysterious convulsion in the Indigo Trade, for
four-and-twenty hours. But this becoming deference to her
experience, on the part of the young mother, was so irresistible,
that after a short affectation of humility, she began to enlighten
her with the best grace in the world; and, sitting bolt upright
before the wicked Dot, she did, in half an hour, deliver more
infallible domestic recipes and precepts than would (if acted
on) have utterly destroyed and done up that Young Peerybingle,
though he had been an Infant Samson.
To change the theme, Dot did a little needlework--she
carried the contents of a whole workbox in her pocket; however
she contrived it, I don't know--then did a little nursing; then
a little more needlework; then had a little whispering chat with
May, while the old lady dozed; and so in little bits of bustle,
which was quite her manner always, found it a very short afternoon.
Then, as it grew dark, and as it was a solemn part of
this Institution of the Picnic that she should perform all Bertha's
household tasks, she trimmed the fire, and swept the hearth, and
set the tea-board out, and drew the curtain, and lighted a candle.
Then she played an air or two on a rude kind of harp, which
Caleb had contrived for Bertha, and played them very well;
for Nature had made her delicate little ear as choice a one for
music as it would have been for jewels, if she had had any to
wear. By this time it was the established hour for having tea;
and Tackleton came back again to share the meal, and spend
the evening.
Caleb and Bertha had returned some time before, and Caleb
had sat down to his afternoon's work. But he couldn't settle
to it, poor fellow, being anxious and remorseful for his daughter.
It was touching to see him sitting idle on his working stool, regarding
her so wistfully, and always saying in his face, "Have I
deceived her from her cradle, but to break her heart?"
When it was night, and tea was done, and Dot had nothing
more to do in washing up the cups and saucers; in a word--for
I must come to it, and there is no use in putting it off--when
the time drew nigh for expecting the Carrier's return in
every sound of distant wheels, her manner changed again, her
colour came and went, and she was very restless. Not as good
wives are when listening for their husbands. No, no, no. It
was another sort of restlessness from that.
Wheels heard. A horse's feet. The barking of a dog.
The gradual approach of all the sounds. The scratching paw
of Boxer at the door!
"Whose step is that?" cried Bertha, starting up.
"Whose step?" returned the Carrier, standing in the portal,
with his brown face ruddy as a winter berry from the keen night
air. "Why, mine."
"The other step," said Bertha. "The man's tread behind
you!"
"She is not to be deceived," observed the Carrier, laughing.
"Come along, sir. You'll be welcome, never fear!"
He spoke in a loud tone; and, as he spoke, the deaf old gentleman
entered.
"He's not so much a stranger that you haven't seen him once,
Caleb," said the Carrier. "You'll give him house room till
we go?"
"Oh, surely, John, and take it as an honour!"
"He's the best company on earth to talk secrets in," said
John. "I have reasonable good lungs, but he tries 'em I can
tell you. Sit down, sir. All friends here, and glad to see you!"
When he had imparted this assurance, in a voice that amply
corroborated what he had said about his lungs, he added in his
natural tone, "A chair in the chimney-corner, and leave to
sit quite silent and look pleasantly about him, is all he cares for.
He's easily pleased."
Bertha had been listening intently. She called Caleb to her
side, when he had set the chair, and asked him, in a low voice,
to describe their visitor. When he had done so (truly now, with
scrupulous fidelity), she moved, for the first time since he had
come in, and sighed, and seemed to have no further interest
concerning him.
The Carrier was in high spirits, good fellow that he was,
and fonder of his little wife than ever.
"A clumsy Dot she was, this afternoon!" he said, encircling
her with his rough arm, as she stood, removed from the rest;
"and yet I like her somehow. See yonder, Dot!"
He pointed to the old man. She looked down. I think
she trembled.
"He's--ha, ha, ha!--he's full of admiration for you!"
said the Carrier. "Talked of nothing else the whole way here.
Why, he's a brave old boy! I like him for it!"
"I wish he had a better subject, John," she said with an
uneasy glance about the room. At Tackleton especially.
"A better subject!" cried the jovial John. "There's no
such thing. Come! off with the great-coat, off with the thick
shawl, off with the heavy wrappers! and a cosy half-hour by the
fire. My humble service, mistress. A game at cribbage, you
and I? That's hearty. The cards and board, Dot. And a
glass of beer here, if there's any left, small wife!"
His challenge was addressed to the old lady, who, accepting it
with gracious readiness, they were soon engaged upon the game.
At first, the Carrier looked about him sometimes with a smile, or
now and then called Dot to peep over his shoulder at his hand,
and advise him on some knotty point. But his adversary being
a rigid disciplinarian, and subject to an occasional weakness in
respect of pegging more than she was entitled to, required such
vigilance on his part, as left him neither eyes nor ears to spare.
Thus, his whole attention gradually became absorbed upon the
cards; and he thought of nothing else, until a hand upon his
shoulder restored him to a consciousness of Tackleton.
"I am sorry to disturb you--but a word directly."
"I'm going to deal," returned the Carrier. "It's a crisis."
"It is," said Tackleton. "Come here, man!"
There was that in his pale face which made the other rise
immediately, and ask him, in a hurry, what the matter was.
"Hush! John Peerybingle," said Tackleton, "I am sorry
for this. I am indeed. I have been afraid of it. I have suspected
it from the first."
"What is it?" asked the Carrier with a frightened aspect.
"Hush! I'll show you, if you'll come with me."
The Carrier accompanied him without another word. They
went across a yard, where the stars were shining, and by a little
side-door, into Tackleton's own counting-house, where there
was a glass window, commanding the ware-room, which was
closed for the night. There was no light in the counting-house
itself, but there were lamps in the long narrow ware-room; and
consequently the window was bright.
"A moment!" said Tackleton. "Can you bear to look
through that window, do you think?"
"Why not?" returned the Carrier.
"A moment more," said Tackleton. "Don't commit any
violence. It's of no use. It's dangerous too. You're a strong-made
man; and you might do murder before you know it."
The Carrier looked him in the face, and recoiled a step as if
he had been struck. In one stride he was at the window, and
he saw----
Oh, Shadow on the Hearth! Oh, truthful Cricket! Oh,
perfidious wife!
He saw her with the old man--old no longer, but erect and
gallant--bearing in his hand the false white hair that had won
his way into their desolate and miserable home. He saw her
listening to him, as he bent his head to whisper in her ear; and
suffering him to clasp her round the waist, as they moved slowly
down the dim wooden gallery towards the door by which they
had entered it. He saw them stop, and saw her turn--to have
the face, the face he loved so, so presented to his view!--and
saw her, with her own hands, adjust the lie upon his head,
laughing, as she did it, at his unsuspicious nature!
He clenched his strong right hand at first, as if it would[163]
have beaten down a lion. But, opening it immediately again,
he spread it out before the eyes of Tackleton (for he was tender
of her even then), and so, as they passed out, fell down upon a
desk, and was as weak as any infant.
He was wrapped up to the chin, and busy with his horse and
parcels, when she came into the room, prepared for going home.
"Now, John dear! Good night, May! Good night, Bertha!"
Could she kiss them? Could she be blithe and cheerful in
her parting? Could she venture to reveal her face to them
without a blush? Yes. Tackleton observed her closely, and
she did all this.
Tilly was hushing the baby, and she crossed and recrossed
Tackleton a dozen times, repeating drowsily:
"Did the knowledge that it was to be its wives, then, wring
its hearts almost to breaking; and did its fathers deceive it from
its cradles but to break its hearts at last!"
"Now, Tilly, give me the Baby! Good night, Mr. Tackleton.
Where's John, for goodness' sake?"
"He's going to walk beside the horse's head," said Tackleton;
who helped her to her seat.
"My dear John! Walk? To-night?"
The muffled figure of her husband made a hasty sign in the
affirmative; and, the false stranger and the little nurse being in
their places, the old horse moved off. Boxer, the unconscious
Boxer, running on before, running back, running round and
round the cart, and barking as triumphantly and merrily as ever.
When Tackleton had gone off likewise, escorting May and
her mother home, poor Caleb sat down by the fire beside his
daughter; anxious and remorseful at the core; and still saying,
in his wistful contemplation of her, "Have I deceived her from
her cradle, but to break her heart at last?"
The toys that had been set in motion for the Baby had all
stopped and run down long ago. In the faint light and silence,
the imperturbably calm dolls, the agitated rocking-horses with
distended eyes and nostrils, the old gentlemen at the street-doors,
standing half doubled up upon their failing knees and
ankles, the wry-faced nut-crackers, the very Beasts upon their
way into the Ark, in twos, like a Boarding-School out walking,
might have been imagined to be stricken motionless with fantastic
wonder at Dot being false, or Tackleton beloved, under
any combination of circumstances.